10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:

1. I feel we are growing apart. You are one of the most amazing, wonderful, loving people I ever met. I feel horrible at times that I'm not better to you, but I'm afraid if I latch onto you like a scared child you'll shove me away.

2. My last thought of the night was imagining what your lap felt like. I'm not sure what you'd think of that, but I'm still curious.

3. You're an asshole, but I love you. There's so much shit you're wasting in your damn life, and I keep trying to show you, keep trying to get your help, but you don't seem to care. I've given up trying, I'm sorry.

4. I don't know you from Adam, but I think you're a talented mother fucker. You have so much better things to do than work in a dumb ass world like this. If I meet you in person, don't freak out if I hug you, I just do that kind of thing.

5. I don't know why we're in a relationship. You've pushed me so hard. I've lied every time I said, "I love you." since we got back together. I don't know if I love you. I like you. I don't know if I love you. I will tell you what I do love, You not looking at me like I killed your family because I don't say "I love you" every five seconds. I know I'm not a good person, but you're no better than a bully making a kid give you his lunch money. Also, I don't care if you don't like my friends, at least they don't say things about you when you're not around.

6. We never hang out anymore. We should go to a show or something, something that we can do that neither of us will feel awkward about. Promise I'll even dress up like a crazy fag like you guys normally do.

7. You're a great guy. I'm sorry you don't get what you deserve. Every time you've done something like go up to my dad and say, "PAPA! How are you?" I've wished you were my brother.

8. I'm jealous of you. You have one of the only women I care about in the entire world, locked up with you, and I'm here. If you weren't such an amazing guy and if she didn't love you more than life itself, I'd fight you. But, you are and she does, so I'm glad you're the one.

9. I'm getting you something for Christmas. Yes, I'm your student, we're not really the best of friends, but you're someone I not only admire, but actually respect. Plus, I know you love the Smashing Pumpkins.

10. I like you. Even if you break up with him, I hope we can still be friends.

9 things people may not know about you:

1. I think I look great in a dress.

2. I don't have and morality when it comes to sex. I don't find anything wrong with it, and I would have sex with anyone I consider a friend. I would never fool around on someone if I was in a relationship unless they were okay with it, which has yet to happen.

3. I fought the law, and amazingly enough, I won.

4. I don't play videos games that much anymore, but the minute people come over, I'll play anything multiplayer.

5. I wish I was black. I've always felt like I was a older, black gentlemen at heart.

6. I'll always call shot gun, I seldom ever get trumped on it.

7. Road trips are my favorite pass time. Give me a destination and a car, and we can have some fun.

8. I smell like a Creamsicle half the time.

9. My natural hair color is a brownish blonde.

8 ways to win your heart:

1. Be interesting.

2. Be accepting.

3. Be open minded.

4. Hold me.

5. Talk to me instead of bottling it all up.

6. Make me feel like I can lean on you, and that you can lean on me.

7. Don't say "I love you" unless you mean it and don't ask me to say it until I'm ready.

8. A little luck.

7 things that cross your mind a lot:

1. What band is this?

2. What album was this song on?

3. Ever notice there's no blue food?

4. How come no one is around to talk to?

5. How the hell am I supposed to make THAT sound?

6. Do they have that in my size?

7. God, you're a fat sack of crap...

6 things you do before you fall asleep:

1. Check Pitchfork, Email, etc.

2. Play guitar for a bit.

3. Shower.

4. Watch Television.

5. Mumble about the next day to myself.

6. Imagine something comforting so I don't have wicked crazy dreams.

5 things you notice in the opposite sex:

1. Eyes

2. Face

3. Hair

4. Their expressions.

5. If they actually like me or think I'm an ass hat.

4 things you wish you never did/had:

1. Said, "It's shit like this that caused Virginia Tech."

2. Tried to cut a gingerbread man with a butter knife.

3. Sat around for a whole summer and didn't do anything but eat and get fat as a fucking pig.

4. Wasted 4+ years of my life.

3 songs to describe your life:

1. Worst Case Scenario~ The Hoosiers

2. Rabbit One~ Masters of Reality

3. Waiting For The Time~ The Brother Kite

2 things you want to do before you die:

1. Record an album and have it released.

2. Have a party for all the awesome people I've met in my life.

1 confession:

1. I want everyone I mentioned in The "Tell 10 People" thing to see what I wrote and know it's them.